Monday, September 15, 2008

Searching for the light in the dark

It's been 2 weeks and 3 days since my mom passed..I keep riding this roller coaster of emotions hoping at some point that it will slow down. I have been trying so hard to get a grip on my emotions, however just when they seem to be in check its as though they ripped right out of my grasp and all I can do is try to hold on for dear life and ride it out..I wrote a poem for my mother the other night while cooking dinner, sometimes its strange places when inspiration strikes...

When night falls and I'm alone with my thoughts
inevitably they turn
to you..

I think of days gone by and I feel
overwhelmed with emotions
Wishes for one more conversation,
one more laugh,
one more I love you...

Life goes on around me in slow motion
it seems..simple tasks
searching for gifts at Hallmark, a nail file catches my eye
"Home is where Mom is"..the world spins
I begin to cry

The words echo "Home is where Mom is"
Yes, you are home and I am left behind
searching for light in the dark...

I miss you mom, so much it hurts...